How much healing does one person need?
With a few breaks here and there, I've been in counselling or therapy for 27 years now, and it turns out I still need fixing!
Don’t get me wrong, I’d say on balance, I’m a very happy, confident person with a full and interesting life. But that doesn’t mean I don’t still have wounds.
It’s become apparent for a couple of reasons that there’s still healing to be done:
1) Starting a business with Jamie is a huge personal development journey (for both of us). And I’m becoming acutely aware that my paranoia and oversensitivity (which I’m sure is caused by how I was treated as a child) could effect our ability to grow. I regularly ruminate about things I’ve imagined I’ve done wrong and spend a disproportionate amount of time believing and worrying that I’ve upset people. I’m very good at getting myself into a big self sabotaging hole. Which is NOT GOOD FOR BUSINESS!
2) I still have acid reflux and phlegm in my throat. This may sound minor to you, but actually in total I’ve had these symptoms for 6.5 years now and they really get me down. Nutritional changes didn’t get to the bottom of it. And my strong hunch now is that it’s related to childhood trauma. So many experts now like Gabor Mate and Bessel Van Der Kolk are proving that traumas show up in our body – usually in very poignant places. I’ve spent a lot of my life not being believed or listened to, so the fact that I have throat issues is no surprise. In fact throat issues are very common with women, which says a lot. And despite all the therapy, I guess my body is telling me, I’ve still got some stuff to process.
I’m not sure exactly HOW I’m going to do this processing, but I’m on a mission – for my health, my business and my happiness, to give it a go!
If this resonates with you at all, please do get in touch, I’d love to hear your story.